I’ve completely my beginner 1 lesson in Japanese and in the midst of starting beginner 2. So far so good, I hope. Am trying my best to remember the stuff I learned and hope I will be able to apply it in my daily life.

Class is extra fun cos everyone’s getting pretty close to each other and we’re more relaxed. Not to mention our first class trip was to an onsen in sungkai, perak. I was skeptical at first, but turns out, it was pretty fun.

We’re planning more trips, mostly it’s for our teacher’s benefit.

Ahhh… The year is ending and I haven’t done much in terms of preparation for my wedding. There’s still so much to do.

I guess being alone allows me some time to think about everything that’s going on in my life right now. I’m not saying that I’m not happy. I am – just, sometimes I feel there’s got to be more than this. I always feel as though I’m stuck in a hole that I can’t get out of, or a hurdle that I can’t overcome.

I still don’t know what to do with my life, and I’m envious of those who’ve already got everything mapped out. I’m in a rut. I want to move forward, but I can’t help but look back every time. Maybe I should do some soul searching.

Perhaps go somewhere to get away and clear my head? Ahh~ *rolls away and hides under the covers*

Anyway, I’m saying this because I got to Skype with my cousins who are far away in Japan. Plus, I got to make my mom happy cos she got to see them too. She used to look after them when they were little, and now they’re all such big kids.

I was talking to them about my upcoming nuptials. I’m so excited to have them come back for it seeing the last time I saw them was almost 4 years ago. I think I last saw my aunt about 10 years ago? =.=” Can’t wait to plan for my honeymoon too. XD Although it wouldn’t be immediately after the wedding, it will happen. We’re hoping sometime in 2013. Danny and I would probably make a trip to see my cousins in Gifu.

I can’t wait to take up some Japanese lessons too. I kinda forgot everything I learnt when I was younger. :S Anyone’s got any recommendations as to where I should get lesson from? I’ve got one place in mind, but am not sure if it’s any good.

Final assessment is out of the way. Now to wait for graduation. :O It’s really hard to believe that 3 years just went by so quickly. It’s even harder to believe that I’m GRADUATING! It really seems surreal, and although I said that I wasn’t gonna be sad… I have to admit that with the feeling finally setting in, I AM gonna miss some of the stuff…and the friends I’ve made.

Now I have to focus on making my final collection for the fashion show in December (plus work on some other adhoc works) and also start a new chapter in life. I’ve already got a job offer and I start on Monday, part-timing for the moment. Sometimes I feel like I’m not ready to let go of college life, but it has to end sometime. :S

Drat.

Feeling a little melancholic now.

The proposal wasn’t really super romantic, but I guess it was romantic enough for me. It started after our anniversary dinner, when we got home. He had asked me what could’ve made the day even more special. I told him the day was special enough. He humored me by taking me to Aquaria to see the fishes. We walked around Pavilion, and we had a yummy anniversary dinner. But in my head, I was wishing for a proposal. I mean, after 8 years, wouldn’t you too? I was ready to spend the rest of my life with him, but I do know that he didn’t seem like he was ready, so I let the subject go.

So when he asked me to close my eyes and turned off the light, I got a tad scared. He then asked me to open my eyes and there it was, the words I never thought he would say (so soon!) written on FB.

” Will you marry me?”

I was stunned. I wasn’t jumping up and down screaming YES!! But I did hug him and peeped a barely audible yes. XD It was incredibly surreal. Even after waking up the next day, I felt like it was a dream. It wasn’t until I saw the ring again that I truly thought, “wow! It really happened.” I have no words to describe the feeling. It is incredibly weird on one hand, yet normal on the other.

Danny says the ring is just to “officiate” everything. I mean, almost everyone I know thinks of us as a married couple already. So yes, a lot of planning in the near future. It’s also a scary feeling, not knowing what to expect. We’ve yet to settle on a date as we’re looking at a good date according to the Chinese calendar.

I’d definitely want to bring more girls home. They’re so fun to sew for. Gah, she’s so cute! *pinch*

Had my birthday dinner at Munakata Japanese restaurant which is located at jalan sultan Ismail ( where kl live center is) and I must say, the food is pretty good. Their menu is both ala carte as well as buffet so we had our fill. Only rant is that they forgot to put my ice cream cake in their freezer, so it melted.

Surrounded myself with my usual gang of friends ( plus brother & mom) and had a laugh cos everyone in attendance was required to wear the kitteh hat & gloves which I brought along.

Me thinks the kitty paws has magical powahs! The Bf seemed to enjoy donning them had was doing random cat poses in them. XD Another person enchanted by them paws was tootie. XD

So another year older and I still don’t know what i wanna do with my life. Currently everything is just feeling so mundane. Maybe after I graduate, I wanna just take a break before going to work. I’m feeling a little afraid of what the future holds. Funny, right?

Ive got so much in my head right now and I dont know what to write down. Don’t know why I’ve been feeling sad most times now even when I have absolutely no reason to be. :s I don’t know why am I experiencing this emotional rollercoaster again. :/

Haven’t really thought about what I wanna do this year, but I do know that I would like to just be away for the weekend since the 4th is on a Monday (boo!) A short getaway perhaps? Gotta ask the Bf.

Also, I’ve been thinking of getting a ferret. :p Not anytime soon though, since we don’t really have the space for one (a comfortable cage is HUGE!) I just think they’re pretty cute. and probably more sociable compared to a cat? I do like cats, but having dogs at home complicates things (case 1: my dogs’ encounter with my part time cat)

Am working hard on my competition entries. Today I spent the day sewing nettings and attaching/ detaching them, just to see if it fits/ looks good. A lil bit worried though since there are no pre-fitting sessions.

Gotta try working at a faster pace.

I have families living in Japan (though nowhere near the epicenter of the quake) and I was worried about them. I didn’t have their phone number, but I did keep in touch with my auntie through facebook and email. So I emailed her just to make sure everyone was okay. Thank goodness I got a reply that everyone was safe.

Japan is top on my list of places to go and it’s a little bit sad to know that it will not be the same again after this tragedy. But I do have to give them two thumbs up for being so calm and orderly in the whole chaos.

I wanted to help out and Socks for Japan enabled me to do so by providing socks for those in need, especially since it’s still pretty cold. I just hope the ones I got will keep them warm though. i think they may still be accepting donations of socks, but those may be sent later. Gotta thank my friend who’s doing this for those who’d like to help in any way they can. I’m just praying that all will be alright soon.

Some good news is that I found out my cousin has graduated middle school and has been accepted into the high school he’s applied to. I’m so proud of him.