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Whirlwind

I’m sorry for the lack of updates. Things just got so busy with the whole new job, getting married thing that I just didn’t think to stop and write, although there have been a lot of action going on on Twitter & FB. ๐Ÿ˜›

So last Saturday was THE big day. I had to stay over at the hotel the night before because instead of the groom picking the bride up at her home, we decided that it would be less of a mess picking me up from the hotel. The room I got was incredibly large with a great view of the KL Tower!

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Raw

12 years.

They say time heals all pain, but I guess 12 years just isn’t even enough for me to even smile about it.

It really hurts when someone who is suppose to care for you & love you unconditionally decides that they don’t want anything to do with you anymore and leaves you and your family without much thought & consideration.

The feeling is still just too raw. I rarely talk about it with anyone, and when I do, I’m always close to tears.

I’ve had people ask me if I’ve asked my dad to be at the wedding. I tell them that I’ve told my brother to tell him (since he has more contact with him anyway) and usually they would just back off.

Then there are the usual persistent family members who go all,
” aww… But he’s your dad. You should tell him personally… Bla bla,”

Seriously?! I’m only even asking him out of courtesy. As far as I’m concerned, I don’t have a father. He may have been someone who gave me life, but I don’t ever remember him being “fatherly” or in fact, present in my life much. I was raised by my mom to be the person I am today, no thanks to him.

So you go around saying stuff like, “but he’s your dad, you should keep in touch with him,” but I don’t see you making an effort into doing the same. So just drop it. Why should I waste my energy on someone who doesn’t want or care to be in my life?

Just thinking about this makes me so angry and sick to my stomach (from all the pent up emotions). If I hadn’t have gotten out when I was younger, I think I would have turned out a lot more dysfunctional.

I wish some people would just stop bringing this up. I will share when I’m ready to share. I think pretty soon I would have to go to therapy just to unload all of these emotional baggage. D:

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my mantra for the year 2012

I will make time for myself to do some soul searching.

I will make time to travel.

I will learn to be more independant.

ย I will stop and smell the roses sometimes.

I will try to notย stress about the small stuff.

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I know it’s been a while since my last post. I haven’t really felt the need to write down my thoughts until recently.

I’ve completely my beginner 1 lesson in Japanese and in the midst of starting beginner 2. So far so good, I hope. Am trying my best to remember the stuff I learned and hope I will be able to apply it in my daily life.

Class is extra fun cos everyone’s getting pretty close to each other and we’re more relaxed. Not to mention our first class trip was to an onsen in sungkai, perak. I was skeptical at first, but turns out, it was pretty fun.

We’re planning more trips, mostly it’s for our teacher’s benefit. ๐Ÿ™‚

Ahhh… The year is ending and I haven’t done much in terms of preparation for my wedding. There’s still so much to do.

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Life goes on.

It’s finally over!

Final assessment is out of the way. Now to wait for graduation. :O It’s really hard to believe that 3 years just went by so quickly. It’s even harder to believe that I’m GRADUATING! It really seems surreal, and although I said that I wasn’t gonna be sad… I have to admit that with the feeling finally setting in, I AM gonna miss some of the stuff…and the friends I’ve made.

Now I have to focus on making my final collection for the fashion show in December (plus work on some other adhoc works) and also start a new chapter in life. I’ve already got a job offer and I start on Monday, part-timing for the moment. Sometimes I feel like I’m not ready to let go of college life, but it has to end sometime. :S

Drat.

Feeling a little melancholic now.

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At the beginning…

Danny and I celebrated our 8th anniversary on the 11th June 2011. It was also the day that he decided to propose to me. ๐Ÿ™‚

The proposal wasn’t really super romantic, but I guess it was romantic enough for me. It started after our anniversary dinner, when we got home. He had asked me what could’ve made the day even more special. I told him the day was special enough. He humored me by taking me to Aquaria to see the fishes. We walked around Pavilion, and we had a yummy anniversary dinner. But in my head, I was wishing for a proposal. I mean, after 8 years, wouldn’t you too? I was ready to spend the rest of my life with him, but I do know that he didn’t seem like he was ready, so I let the subject go.

So when he asked me to close my eyes and turned off the light, I got a tad scared. He then asked me to open my eyes and there it was, the words I never thought he would say (so soon!) written on FB.

” Will you marry me?”

I was stunned. I wasn’t jumping up and down screaming YES!! But I did hug him and peeped a barely audible yes. XD It was incredibly surreal. Even after waking up the next day, I felt like it was a dream. It wasn’t until I saw the ring again that I truly thought, “wow! It really happened.” I have no words to describe the feeling. It is incredibly weird on one hand, yet normal on the other.

Danny says the ring is just to “officiate” everything. I mean, almost everyone I know thinks of us as a married couple already. So yes, a lot of planning in the near future. It’s also a scary feeling, not knowing what to expect. We’ve yet to settle on a date as we’re looking at a good date according to the Chinese calendar. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Another year…

So another year has gone by. Plans were derailed a little, but soon got back on track.

Had my birthday dinner at Munakata Japanese restaurant which is located at jalan sultan Ismail ( where kl live center is) and I must say, the food is pretty good. Their menu is both ala carte as well as buffet so we had our fill. Only rant is that they forgot to put my ice cream cake in their freezer, so it melted. ๐Ÿ™

Surrounded myself with my usual gang of friends ( plus brother & mom) and had a laugh cos everyone in attendance was required to wear the kitteh hat & gloves which I brought along.

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Me thinks the kitty paws has magical powahs! The Bf seemed to enjoy donning them had was doing random cat poses in them. XD Another person enchanted by them paws was tootie. XD

So another year older and I still don’t know what i wanna do with my life. Currently everything is just feeling so mundane. Maybe after I graduate, I wanna just take a break before going to work. I’m feeling a little afraid of what the future holds. Funny, right?

Ive got so much in my head right now and I dont know what to write down. Don’t know why I’ve been feeling sad most times now even when I have absolutely no reason to be. :s I don’t know why am I experiencing this emotional rollercoaster again. :/

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It’s that time again

Just realized that my birthday is in 13 (well, 12 by the time this is posted) days!

Haven’t really thought about what I wanna do this year, but I do know that I would like to just be away for the weekend since the 4th is on a Monday (boo!) A short getaway perhaps? Gotta ask the Bf.

Also, I’ve been thinking of getting a ferret. :p Not anytime soon though, since we don’t really have the space for one (a comfortable cage is HUGE!) I just think they’re pretty cute. ๐Ÿ˜€ and probably more sociable compared to a cat? I do like cats, but having dogs at home complicates things (case 1: my dogs’ encounter with my part time cat)

Am working hard on my competition entries. Today I spent the day sewing nettings and attaching/ detaching them, just to see if it fits/ looks good. A lil bit worried though since there are no pre-fitting sessions. ๐Ÿ™

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Gotta try working at a faster pace.

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Socks for Japan

Everyone knows about the current crisis in Japan; earthquakes, tsunamis and risk of a nuclear disaster. I was shocked when I heard about the 8.9 magnitude earthquake that hit Sendai. I knew it was huge, but I didn’t know how huge it was until I saw videos on the news. It scared me. Then came the tsunami. It just seemed so surreal.

I have families living in Japan (though nowhere near the epicenter of the quake) and I was worried about them. I didn’t have their phone number, but I did keep in touch with my auntie through facebook and email. So I emailed her just to make sure everyone was okay. Thank goodness I got a reply that everyone was safe.

Japan is top on my list of places to go and it’s a little bit sad to know that it will not be the same again after this tragedy. But I do have to give them two thumbs up for being so calm and orderly in the whole chaos.

I wanted to help out and Socks for Japan enabled me to do so by providing socks for those in need, especially since it’s still pretty cold. I just hope the ones I got will keep them warm though. ๐Ÿ™ i think they may still be accepting donations of socks, but those may be sent later. Gotta thank my friend who’s doing this for those who’d like to help in any way they can. I’m just praying that all will be alright soon.

Some good news is that I found out my cousin has graduated middle school and has been accepted into the high school he’s applied to. ๐Ÿ™‚ I’m so proud of him.

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Convert

Man, my last entry was sometime in January. ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

Oops… My bad. I’ve been meaning to do an update but somehow I got lost in the real world. Right now I am blogging on my IPhone.